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My Epiphany....
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My Epiphany.... Happy New Year...yea, I know it's a little late, but when have I ever been on time? *sigh* It's tried very hard to be a good year thus far, missed the mark a few times...or at least I thought it had until I looked back and realized something very important. Humor me for a second for a little background...? I have a very open heart, capable of great love...and when I love you, it is real and big and you become a part of me forever. Now, having said that, I can also tell you that when it comes to intimate love, the kind of love that is shared between two people, the romantic love, the love of my life love...well, I'm not nearly as open as I'd like to be. There's a bit of fear in that kind of love, because I've not been very heart smart in my choices...and at times I don't quite trust myself. But I'm getting there, and it's a journey...wouldn't you agree? So on Sunday, as I was driving back from my monthly trip to see my Mom and take care of business...I had a heart stopping, made me cry like a baby, epiphany. We had just gone through a major snow/ice storm on Friday/Sat which is very unusual for our Coastal area and as you might imagine, it was quite beautiful from the view of my windshield. Trees and grass fields covered in shimmering ice. Many times as I drove, I wished I had my camera with me so that I could stop and take a picture...and then, for some reason I happened to glance up at my rearview mirror and the picture I saw overwhelmed me. I thought I was going to have to pull over on the side of the road because the tears that welled over almost blinded me to the road. When I looked behind me, at the road I had just traveled, at the trees and fields I had just passed and deemed beautiful, I was blown away by the absolute stunning difference of seeing them again with the sun reflecting through them. It was night and day...in my forward view I could only see things as they were, I could not see what they became in the space of time it took to move forward; I could not see how the caress of the sun, (dare I say love?), changed the whole picture. It was a small epiphany for me...as I realized that sometimes we can't see the true beauty of something until we've walked the path and turned around to fully "see" it. That's all. That's enough. I am thankful for the gift.  I make mistakes, I am out of control & at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. ~Marilyn |
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You mean you didn't stop in the middle of the road???  All kidding aside, this is breathtaking ... as epiphanies often are. Then, again, so are you, my dearest sister. *much love and hugs* /  This is my blog - [blog _Safira]. There are many like it, but this one is mine. RECOMMENDED READING: A F F The Only Site For Me
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I KNEW it! *giggle* (And THAT'S one of the reasons I love you SOOOOOOO much!  )This is my blog - [blog _Safira]. There are many like it, but this one is mine. RECOMMENDED READING: A F F The Only Site For Me
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I think that not a small E...that one could be huge before all has been said and done.... beautifully written. truth. I loved checkin' in and finding this ... Happy New Year!! Sending you love always ... Just a little food for thought............. If you really want to be happy, nobody can stop you... {=}
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Today is a gift, enjoy the present.....mark_severin....yahoo!
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10/10/2010 7:19 pm |
Geaux Saints!!!!
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umm....actually...I did.
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